How many others are out there with my experience ?

I received a comminuted skull and facial fractures in a mva in November 1985 . Needless to say I was hideous to look at for a very long time . After the first major surgery which involved several surgeons at Calgarys’ Foothills Hospital I was released so near christmas . In a total fog and drinking codeine elixer from a bottle given to me by the doctor I went into a store to buy gifts for my daughters and was horrified to see mothers dragging their children out of the aisles I was walking . That was only the beginning of my nightmare . Several surgeries and 2 decades have passed . I cannot believe how many mistakes I made over the years . I was never councilled for the change in personality I would experience but being a survivor and a guy , I muddled forward completely ignorant of how my personal relationships would suffer . In the eighties that was not part of the medical community for my type of injury . Two marriages later and completely estranged from my daughters , who I might add have no idea of the subsequent damage my injuries caused . Remarkably I was able to carry on a productive career , driven and focused as I had always been . Just not the same person , miserably lacking in social skills . Everything was going great until in May of 2008 while riding my mororcycle to a store to pick up some office supplies , a car turned left in front of me leaving absolutely no room to avoid a collision . Instinctively to prevent a more serious impact I layed the bike down and skidded into the car sideways . I remember pulling my leg out from between the motorcycle and the car and after that, darkness . I awoke in the hospital and discovered I had received a second not nearly as serious concussion . Problem is this one seems to have affected me more than the first and after two years of medication and rehabilitation I am still not back to work and quite honestly I feel hopeless, helpless and completely depressed . I miss my daughters terribly but I don’t want to seem weak and blame my sometimes abrasive personality on an injury . It’s a guy thing …